I was put on the waitlist for the Masters program at the University of Calgary but I found out today that no positions have opened. So, that was my last shot for this year. As humbling (and by humbling, I mean emotionally devestating :D) as it has been being rejected from all the places I applied to, not to mention how gawddamn expensive it is, I...will try again next year. I am going to apply to the U of C as an Open Studies student this term and if I can get permission from the Faculty Head and manage to scrounge together another application and mail it off before all classes fill up, I can take some of the courses I would be taking in the Masters program this year. And since I can only take a few courses I'll be able to manage a part time job with less trouble. Which means more money for retail therapy as that's how I cope with failure roll.

So, it would have been nice to find this out the day I got back form my trip instead of right before. But I'm hoping that Toronto adventures will get my mind off things and give me a resurgence of energy I definitely need. There is so much to do between trips. Home shopping, packing, furniture buying, moving, getting permissions, fighting for courses, finding a part-time job... I also want to start physical therapy. I'm probably way too old now to gain full flexibility of my arms but it just really pisses me off. I can't "wave my arms in the air, like I just don't care." What if I get held up by gunpoint!? Raising your arms above your head is an important skill! Ugh, and I need to get in shape as I feel like a whale.

BUT, I am pumped for Anime North. Like, THE biggest geekfest I may ever get to go to! Although, who knows, maybe I'll manage to get to a convention in the US sometime. I think I might ultimately end up in California or something, if I have a choice. I love Canada, I do. I am so proud to be from here but winter just lasts TOO LONG. I'm over it! It was -2 yesterday. There was snow on the ground. It's LATE MAY. After Christmas, I can just feel all the energy being sucked right out of me and I become a zombie for the next million years before summer starts. I want to know what it's like to be warm and feeling good in the sunshine a whole year as opposed to a measly few months! And the water, I miss it so bad )':

OVER IT.

This is a very random post. I guess that's what happens when you never update. there's just too much to say and not enough energy to put it in structured paragraphs.

My mom is coming home today <3. I are glad. And Appa is coming with me to Toronto \o/ I hope they check the container he's flying in at security. I love the reactions to him!

Ohohohoooooooo...there's that "I'm fucked" feeling that I've been able to ignore for so long.

Who knew that having a bachelor of science degree would not be enough to get me accepted for a bachelor of science degree program?

GRILL.

My only hope for the year is that Calgary takes me off the waitlist tomorrow.

Now, please excuse me while I go vomit all over the place and continue to ignore my parents calling every. five. seconds.

LEX SAYS HI :D/

I just thought I'd introduce my first bjd, Lexington Burroughs :'D And also, say hi to my F-list peeps. I miss you all to pieces! I need to get online more as opposed to turning on the computer and promptly falling asleep

....yaaaaaah. 

Also, if any of you are interested in bjds, I will be posting pictures and stuff on another journal dollsat22  so I don't harrass the general public with my new hobby. The layout still needs work. Damn you footer bar not re-sizing! *shakes fist in a fist shaking manner*

To all those going to Animaritime I wish you all the best with the crazy weekend! :'D It feels so weird I will not be there. I know it's going to go awesomely and I can't wait to see pictures!

When I sleep a full 8 hours each day that weekend...I will be thinking of you guys <3

(Ohhh....BURN XD)

Love! <3

I'm in your LJ, making spam posts. >3

Hooooooooooooooly Jeebus.

I don't know what I just did.

Well, I DO know. But I don't know what I was thinking.


So...I bought a BJD (ball jointed doll/dollfie/creepy big-eyed thing you can dress up). And it's expensive. And as soon as I ordered it my brain was like OH NOE SMA OH NOE YOU DIN'NT!

But it's done now. And my hands are shaking. That's one helluva purchase that doesn't make a helluva lot of sense.

Hopefully I'll feel different once he's here and being pretty and ginormous in my hand?

Oh shiiiiiiiiiiit, what have I done DX

I was seriously looking for DAYS for the perfect one and I finally chose Ducan from Dream of Doll. He's 61cm tall and all shifty eyed and pissy. Which I liked!


Uhm, yah. I think I'm going to go treadmill off this adrenaline. This is definitely the most money I've ever spent on something so impractical. I mean, I spend lots of money on things, I know, but they're usually stuff that has a purpose. Like..clothes.


....


gah!?!?!? D':

Shuffles and Keesha! Are you interested in seeing The Nutcracker Ballet or Sarah Brightman (she's the one that does the folksy elvish stuff we like, right? XD) in concert? As they are both happening near the Twilight Time. Let me know if you are or are not interested XD I have been in the house TOO LONG and would like to have an excuse to go out somewhere!

Sunrise Sunset by ~Origami-Kitten on deviantART

Holy mo'jeebus I finished a drawing! Haha, I have no idea if it's acceptable for a portfolio but they're gonna get it anyways! >:D

I do need to work on some observational drawings. But..they're just so boring. Why can't real people have cat heads..then I'd want to draw them all the time .

...

It's 8:30. I think it's bedtime!

....Haha, my life is so sad XD

I seem to be sinking into a life of hermitude. Uhm, and I'm not sure how to stop it? It's like I've come so far from how I was in high school only to fall right back into the same isolating pattern. I just work and sleep and work and sleep. And all the work and sleep makes me more tired so I work and sleep more and I lose track of everything and everyone and..just...go no where.

Sometimes my voice doesn't work right because I haven't used it all day. And, uhm, that worries me. When did I forget how to interact socially? When did the ability to make or keep friends leave me? Did I ever have that skill or was I just good at leeching off the friends of the few friends I did make?



I miss you guys and I have to try harder to stay in contact as...I seem to be failing at that pretty hard.



(This is why I have been avoiding going on LJ. As I'll be tempted to emo-fest everywhere. I'm pretty sure in a half hour this post will be gone ;p)

Great. Just great. If I don't find my freaking passport tomorrow I will be so fucking pissed.

That's right. Pissed enough to swear.

I move a million times and I have no problem but suddenly when I'm going to need it...it freaking disappears. Apparently I hid it on the moon for safe-keeping.


Grughgghg D:

"I'm totally fine with gay people. At college I met a lot and we became friends. I still tease them about it all the time though. But they just laugh. That's what I like about gay people, they're very laid back."

...

WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE THEY'RE ANOTHER SPECIES OR SOMETHING??

That was basically my coworker talking at me while I gave her the googly eyes. Googly eyes because I am still shocked (alhough I shouldn't be by now) that there a serious amount of individuals who talk about other individuals like a nature show narrator would about the mannerisms of the water buffalo. They're a person, you're a person. Everywhere a person person! It's a sexual orientation. Get over it already. Oh yes. Am I supposed to be impressed with your 'worldliness' having met someone who is gay at college?

*EYE ROLL*

As you can tell work is a joy.

Just like cleaning up cat vomit every other day is such a joy.


I am just so full of joy!!!!111! :Db